January 20, 2010


Well, the blog is. I have been simultaneously trying to maintain two blogs and it ain't working. So, that means they all get consolidated to one and that's the end. All the posts will be on the new one. Click here to go over to the new one. Thanks for taking this journey with me.
Lola V

January 8, 2010

I kiss and tell...

Fair Warning.

i am ready for the good times

Tonight was batted out of the park by none other than miss meims and amina with lady diamond stepping up as a pinch hitter. Vampire weekend, booze, ping-pong, Vietnamese food and celebrating the birthday early and random subway platform singalongs can spoil a girl. I love my life!

January 6, 2010

This is my paper heart...

photo from bitsy

This weekend was a lot of fun for me despite the frigid temperatures here in NYC. Saturday was a lazy day that involved laying in bed and watching movies, and Sunday was quite busy with meeting friends in two different boroughs.

Sunday was a treat, though, mostly because I was treated. I cannot express how much I appreciate and adore my friends. The lovely Amina treated me to brunch and several cups of hot chocolate on our outing Sunday afternoon. We wandered aimlessly around midtown for six hours. It was a lovely afternoon.

I left Amina to drop of cookies and clothing that I had borrowed from my friend Ericka. It was movie day at Casa De Queens so I plopped down on the floor and took in the cinema while I was there. It was in fact a 2 hour train ride through 3 boroughs, I might as well make it worth it. We watched "Paper Heart" with Charlyne Yi and Michael Cera. It was this scripted documentary. I really liked it mostly because I can relate.

I have had some of the conversations that are in the beginning of the movie, almost verbatim. I am one of the non-believers. The Beatles have famously said "All you need is love..." but I beg to differ. The movie was entertaining, even though it felt that Cera strong armed his way into the movie. I was disappointed in that plotline. But there was a point that was made in the movie that sometimes the chemicals just don't work.

For me, that has been the case. I very much want the starry-eyed fireworks, the "BOOM-POP-SIZZLE" as I like to refer to it. That feeling in the pit of your stomach that is a mix of sheer excitement, anticipation, and a slight hint of nausea. The adrenaline, the dopamine, the seratonin, it makes for utter euphoria. I WANT THAT!
I am by no means saying that I am unlovable, because lets be honest, I'm awesome. Seriously. But, I may have faulty wiring, full disclosure. If I could turn it on at my leisure I would, trust. Even the sweetest, most kind-hearted gent I've ever met (well in NYC anyway) tried, oh so hard, and I couldn't be swayed. I wanted to, boy did I, but I couldn't feel anything.

I know that you're thinking, maybe there was no chemistry, etcetera, so on, and whatnot. But never in my life? I'll be 25 next week (sad, I know) and not once, not ever. Sad Trombones Everywhere. I've read the books and the blogs and just about everything under the sun saying I should open myself up to the possibility, I tried it and you know what... it's malarkey. All of it. I'm not closing myself off to love, I'm just not that desperate for it. (Then why on earth have I wasted your brain matter on this post?) This may just be me, acquiescing to the powers that be in acknowledgment that it ain't gonna happen. At least now we all know.

January 1, 2010

You're welcome!

Welcome 2010!!! I'm so glad to finally meet you. You're predecessor wasn't too kind to me, so I am desperately hoping for things to change.

So, this is me early this morning after our little New Year's shindig. In my hand is an empty bottle formerly of cider. I learned from last year's mistakes and didn't want to spend today severely hungover. It's also proof that when I told my parents I was drinking cider, I was indeed telling the truth. I want to be better this year.

Speaking of being better, I did a kick ass job on my make-up last night. It is said that what ever you are doing when you ring in the new year is what you will do all year. That's why people kiss at midnight. I was too busy being glamorous. For realsies.

I am honestly looking forward to the new year. Last year was utter crap. I didn't make any resolutions for the year because I never keep them, but I do have aspirations for this year. I even got up and ran 3 miles today. I'm hoping that by April I'll be in shape to run the half marathon. We shall see.

This year, I may even go back to full vegetarianism. It's too early to tell. I've been eating fish and chicken this year b/c of the wonky way my body works, but I will take it one day at a time and just make sure that my body gets what it needs.

As there is a new beginning so must there be an end. I am at the end of my internship at the music magazine. I have learned so much in these past few months. Hopefully, I can go out into the world and parlay it into something big. One would hope.

I hope that this new year finds you happy and healthy. Follow your dreams and make 2010 great!


December 29, 2009

how i am feeling of late

Feist - Mushaboom